i feel like i should be doing something tonight. the only solace i can find in my boredom is that in as little as a week i won’t care that i didn’t do anything last friday night. and in a year, i could give a fuck what i did november 27th 2009.

whack. this night is going to be whack. while everybody is out bowling their hearts out i am home doing the same thing i was doing four hours ago. i am discontented. i never do anything fun anymore. and even though this is a four day weekend, it just seems like a shitty reprieve from the extremely shitty time i have been having at school lately.

i really have to find some hobbies or something or i am going to go crazy. i mean, this is supposed to be the most wonderful time of the year, but for us it’s just going to mean more work and more anxiety. this as we wait for the colleges to decide whether we are worthy of throwing money at them for four years.